Why did My First Love Have to be this Complicated?

”Wow, you look amazing tonight, Ditya, ” said Ruri, ”You don look like a teenager anymore. ”

”Can you tell us tips and tricks that can make you match up with a country flower like Navia? ” asked Bhan.

”Drink first, drink first. Your face looks tired, doesn it? So pale, ” said Diro attentively as he handed Ditya a glass of soft drink.

”The powder is just too thick, ” replied Bhan jokingly.

Dityas lips grew friendlier, thanked him, and accepted the offered drink. Said, ”Thank you so much for taking the time to come. Even though Ive practiced a few times, its still uncomfortable. ”

”We can change positions, you know, Dit, if you don want to be with Navia, ” Bhan teased while nudging Dityas shoulder with the tip of his elbow.

Ditya just smiled faintly. Didn seem to be enjoying the conversation. But, can hope for other topics of conversation either. All that others wanted to hear must be only those related to Navia. Its not like he can control everything either.

”You are a great kufr, ” added Diro with laughter.

Again Ditya just smiled faintly.

”Ditya, ” someone called from behind. Playing back memories that shouldn be repeated. Make a heart that is trying to recover feel sore.

”You…. ”

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PLAAAKK!!! A loud slap landed on Mikas smooth cheek. Since the first courtship honestly this is the first time they are in direct physical contact. The girl, whose full name is Gwen Yasamina Alira Barkha, is an ordinary new school year student. Born into an ordinary family. As an ordinary human being, live life as usual, and he hopes to end it with ”ordinary ”.

But, come on, life will certainly be very boring if only passed in the habit. As human beings, we all need dynamism, turmoil, ups and downs, the roar of breath, as well as the accompaniment of challenges.

Everything will become more valuable with the existence of it all.

Although not many people can be grateful for it.

”What do you want, Mika? ” asks Gwen. Sit on the edge of the bed while bending her back by placing two elbows on her knees. Hoping to find a little light from the two eyes once she closed them.

Although it will certainly be very heavy.

Mika did not move from her place standing on the other side of the bed. He turned his body. Make their positions so that they turn their backs on each other. In a standard type room of a 3-star hotel that is not too special. So the background of all the dizziness lodged in the young mans head.

”Why are you so quiet now, anyway? Confused about what else to avoid? How long will you treat me like this? ” asked the girl, slightly turning her head towards Mikas back. The back that for the past few years has been the back that always shows in which direction it should stare and head. The back can always be a place where he complained when faced with various kinds of problems. The back always willing to protect from the scorching suns heat is also the cold of rainstorms. The back that he always tried to understand all his problems.

But the back doesn feel the same anymore. There began a lot of rotten mushrooms that seemed to grow there. Mushrooms that give off a bad smell. Forced Gwen who had only wanted to be close to him was forced to move away to the limit where his scent was no longer smelled.

Mika, I still want to stay by your side, you know. I still want to be a woman you can count on. Isn that how our relationship has been going all along? Why is it that more and more visible only darkness is also gloom? Where is that sweet dream we built together so long ago?

Only such diverse thoughts continue to overshadow Gwens heart. On the one hand, he was afraid that something would happen to their relationship. However, on the other hand, he is also worried that worse things will happen if the current problems cannot be solved immediately.

When he looked again with the edge of his eyes, Mikas back remained motionless. In contrast to him, the young man remained sitting upright in a perfect pose. As if nothing was bothering him. Gwen looked ahead. With a cranky heart continue to bend the body. You feel a heavy weight on your back. He just didn want their conversation tonight to end anticlimactically where suddenly they overslept because they were tired and had to check out without any conclusions tomorrow.

Huh, so trite.

On the side of Mica. The young man who even though he still installed a perfect sitting position. His two senses of sight shed tears silently. He didn know why life was so hard when he was young. Sometimes it comes to the thought of ending it all. But, of course not. Doing so is sinful.

God did not bring us into the world just for fun, as one religious leader said.

Zreek. Mika erects the body. Walk towards the exit without saying a word.

Gwen is upset and getting emotional and asks, ”Where Are you going? Why did you bring me here if its useless? If there is no solution to all the problems. ”

”You be